Release...

Well.... hello. It's me again. I really enjoy journaling... and I anticipate it will be fun to look back and see the journey and process. From what I hear, history usually repeats itself.... so this will be fun a year from now, looking back being at my optimal health and weight... living the lifestyle and to look back and see the journey. It will help when I'm starting a "New Adventure"... with this one accomplished and being lived out. 

So... I want to start out by saying, I'm just going to be transparent through this process. I hope that's ok with everyone, if it's not...... I guess you can read something else. :) Is that ok? :) For real though, I'm just going to be me. I'm not going to try to be somebody else, I'm not going to try to be perfect, or the "promoter" of how wonderful everything is every moment. I really just want to be real.... disclaimer and all. 

On the trip, we were on a bus ride to Buena Park to visit the Nutrilite Farm... the night before, in my hotel room I had been spending some time with the Lord, just talking and doing my best to listen.... read, be guided. Well... He led me to Psalm 93. I read it.... my Bible has the King James and Amplified versions side by side. Well... what I really liked was what it said in the Amplified version, primarily verse 5:

" Your testimonies are very sure; holiness [apparent in separation from sin, with simple trust and hearty obedience] is becoming to Your house, O Lord, forever."

Well... let me tell you what I think and what I like about that verse.... while in CA, I was starting to "think" too much and put pressure on myself...before I went out there, I was trying to figure out how I could fit the "my life" into "the program" and just make a few adjustments.... How I could still go to Carrabba's every week, sit at our normal place, get our normal and fabulous server, Ian..... "How could I fit my life into this program." Well... for ME, what this verse said was that, YES, MY TESTIMONY IS GOING TO BE TOLD AND WILL SHOW (literally and physically)... but, what I had to do was stop trying to "FIGURE it out". In my mind and self, I wanted to make tweeks, today for example.... I starting pressuring myself... had negative self-talk "What if it doesn't work? What if I don't accomplish what I want? What if... what if... what if..." ... then tonight, Tyler and I went out walking and I told him I needed some encouragement, that I was putting all this pressure on myself. As we talked, I remembered the verse... and the MAIN part that the Holy Spirit wanted me to realize.... "Just put SIMPLE TRUST in the program, and follow it with HEARTY OBEDIENCE. TRUST THE SYSTEM. TRUST my COACH. TRUST that they really do know what they are talking about." If I trust and obey, I will succeed. I can do that. I can follow a plan, I can trust, and I can work hard. Today, life happened. As Lorrie Taylor has said before, "Today just wasn't a good day". Had some challenges at work, had lots of pressure and some issues to deal with. But, do you know what. I FOLLOWED THE PROGRAM TODAY. Coach Diane didn't have me scheduled to do 4-3-2-1, but I ate what was on the meal plan, I took the stairs TWICE at work (which I have never done!) up FOUR flights of stairs to my office, I walked for about 30 minutes talking to Tyler..... and I even sent an "encouragment" note to someone at work who ticked me off.... they just took a new position and I let them know I was praying for them. And I have too! It made me not as mad at them, when I wrote the note and prayed for them! 

Tomorrow is going to be a great day! I'm going to get more caught up, my computer is going to work, I'm going to follow the program, look for ways to encourage others and be a blessing. 

God is good.  He chose me, so HE will help me succeed. I'll close with this... this is what I'm going to do: 

Proverbs 16:3 (AMP) "Roll your works upon the Lord [commit and trust them wholly to Him; He will cause your thoughts to become agreeable to His wil, and] so your plans be established and succeed."

Love ya'll!